This week a couple of times Emery has shut down because she didn't get her way. It is a lot better than it used to be, but typically she shuts down if she gets told no or doesn't get her way. She has come a really long way and doing so much better with this. This week it happened again and I was surprised since it had been a while. She pulls herself out of it quickly and is back to being a happy girl. But this week I was thinking, 'you are not an orphan' and then I thought, do I treat God this way. If I don't need Him for something or get a no for an answer do I ever retreat or shut down or try to do it all on my own when having help would make it better. Do I act like an orphan when I am a child of God? Do I act like I don't belong or like I am being punished simply when the answer isn't exactly what I want, even when God has a better idea of what I need for the long term goal of me being a great person? It really hit me...am I living like a child who is adored and watched over and taken care of, or do I live like an orphan?
I would hope that I am living like a child of God, not an orphan. And I should try to make sure that I am always living like I know what that privilege is and that I am not ever an orphan, but am always a cherished daughter of God.
|Not an Orphan!|